My Thoughts

It happens with almost each one of us that we are in an internal battle, the battle si between my own heart and my own head. What a pitiable situation…both are important to me and I need both of them to live a beautiful life. Then why cant they live peacefully instead of fighting and bothering me..

Now, it’s my life and it’s going fast. I need to find a solution and I need to have a way of resolving the conflict very soon. Because I have a mantra in life, I do not want to look back and regret that I could have lived better.

I think, the answer to that question lies in answering a very basic question “what you want in life?”

People live by what they think they should be or by what others like them to be. One life to live, and that to its so short and unpredictable, then how can I live my life on the basis of what others think I should be doing? It doesn’t make any sense to me even from the most practical point view. When I decide what I want in life, I just listen to my heart. I believe that what my desires comes from the whispers of my authentic self. My authentic self is the real me. My authentic self is the real me. When I go by logic, I may make business sense but not sense of living a life.

When I listen to my heart and do things I feel a burning passion in me and that gets anything done by me with passion and the are accomplished without hesitation. I give my best without feeling any hesitation or resistance.

I always follow my instincts. This habit has got so many roots in me that I just set on action when my instinct pushes me. The reason I follow my instincts so blindly can be, whenever I didn’t follow them, I did regret. Following instincts, I have never been wrong so far.

I may sound immature to say follow your heart but that is what I do. I know people who do otherwise and do not see them doing better than me when it comes to living a life of balance. Yes, I do face problems like others do. Following instincts is not a full proof plan and I do get challenges on the way, but then I am happy to face them and resolve them without a single worry because I am doing what I always wanted to do. And if I fail, at least I tried doing what I wanted to do and I am happy to give many tries. One major pre-requisite and benefit of following instincts is – you let go your self set limitations and you are able to stretch beyond what you think you could. This worked for me many times.

Then do I need to forget about my head and just follow my heart…Not at all.

I do use my head extensively to achieve the dreams that my instincts have pushed me for. I use if like a planning center where all the “I want to do and be” are put into implementation. And, I use my head to support my heart when I meet challenges on the way, to find solutions for problems that come in the way.

And what I really really avoid doing is letting my heart compromise by listening to what my head has to say.

I am unique and so is every creature on this earth. World becomes wonderful having so many different people as different people add different colors to the canvas. So, I wish everyone just comes out of mind limitations and let their hearts do the talking and let their heads listen to them.

Today I am missing the hug of someone whom I love the most, the most beautiful woman in the world- my mom. Since it is too late to call her up now, I thought of sharing what I feel for her in writing. She is the most brave, most cute, most beautiful, most selfless and most innocent individual I have seen. I always say that I am god's special child and may be that is why I have a special mom. She is more than a mother to me and more than a friend. She has always shown me the right way, and done the right things for me. I was never alone all my life because she was always there with me and even now when we are kilometers apart. I love her the most and I know that she knows this. Still I don't seem to understand how do I truely express to her how much I love. Whenever I listen to the song I have shared in the video, I cry. I cry not of sadness but because I feel so much for my mom that the feelings just flow down my eyes.

If there is one thing in this world that I never want to loose, its just my mom. I can afford to loose everything I have but not her presence in my life. She is like a shade for me and I can do great things just with her by my side. No matter how sad I am, just a hug for her can just set me right. Her hug is like the safest place in the world where I feel so safe and loved and cared for. She is always there when I am sad even if it is for my mistake. Obviously everyone loves their mom but I dont know how often we express it. The way we celebrate with our friends how many time we celebrate the same way with our mom? If we are away from home, how often we go to meet her understanding that she misses us. Just say her that you love her rather than thinking that she knows. It is not possible to keep everyone happy, giving happiness to mom is the most important. She is soo special!

“We only have One Mom, One Mommy, One Mother in this World, One life. Don't wait for the Tomorrow's to tell Mom, you love her.”

Oh god! can anyone love me more than my mom?

Maa, this poem is for you!

When someone knows your weaknesses but loves you anyway

and she will always be there for you each and every day

When someone will stop and listen when you're feeling low

When someone cares so very much so much to let you go

When someone is willing to do without so your life is complete

and they will give you courage when you have faced defeat

When someone is this special you know she is from above

and there’s a place within your heart filled with special love

Thank you for everything

and I hope these words convey the love I feel for you each and every day
I Love You Maa!

To be natural is such a very difficult pose to keep up. ~Oscar Wilde

He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away. ~Raymond Hull

Offcourse I am myself, is this what you are thinking? DO you remember instances when you did not do something that you really want to do thinking about things like what people would think, its not cool, it is not PRACTICAL, its not possible or let it be? I bet you dont have to use your memory a lot to get the answers..The other day I wanted to enjoy the first rain here and there were many people on another terrace watching. What a difficult decision - Go in the rain OR think about others...I went in the rain and the consequence was I had a awesome time and others joined me too! There may be others thinking that I am a kid and am immature, and honestly I dont care. There is no fun being too practical and too matured all the time. I prefer going out and doing things that I want to do and I don"t seem to go wrong doing that. Its fun to be imperfect!

We all hear people saying “Be Yourself” but I find a few people who are actually brave enough to be SELF. Okay, there is no need to be perfect. I am extremely imperfect and I enjoy this imperfection truely. One thing that I have gifted myself is the gift of individualism. I can be either a person or an individual. I prefer being later. We are born individuals and as kids we rarely care of what others think of we doing a particular thing. May be that is why we are happiest while we are kids. But as we grow up, we learn to follow rules and do things what others would think highly of rather than doing what I want to do. In the course of being sophisticated, we tend to forget what we really enjoy doing and what truely matters.

Honestly, being yourself takes a lot of courage. What if others don’t like you thinking a particular way, doing a particular thing. I like enjoying simple things in life and I like to live my life as I feel like living. I hate the word HAVE TO and love the word WANT TO. For instance, I know that I like travelling, I like to live life in my own terms, I am not a party person, I like to talk a lot, I like to learn interesting things, I don’t like to do things just for the sake of rules and conditions. Whenever I tried to not be any of these, I felt extremely worthless and a part of a crowd with no life, living life like a machine because have to live. Believe me, I don’t mind wearing a common dress but I cant think of being an ordinary person. I think no one is ordinary, rather everyone is unique. This uniqueness comes out for the world to see and appreciate only when you take the risk of being yourself. Try it once, its awesome!

So, I prefer being myself and just being myself. What a big relief not having to wear a mask!

I know many people who want to do different good things for self and others and they take great pride in talking about them. When I ask why are you not doing it right now, the most common answer is “First I want to become something in life and get settled and then I will live my dream” My simple question is:

What if this tomorrow never comes?
What if tomorrow you may not have the health to enjoy your dream fulfilment?
What if tomorrow you don’t make the money you want to make?

Common, I am living a unique beautiful and gifted life and I can’t see it passing by without having beautiful moments in it each day. It is like watching an icecream melt away in front of you without even tasting it. The moments will be beautiful when I enjoy being myself and I am content with what I am doing (truly content, not the practical types)

Today if I die, I wont regret because I have lived my own life and have not lived a life of someone else’s choice. I will not die with “wish I did what I wanted do”

If you are not living the way you want to, trying to follow too much of bad experience to be cautious, not able to enjoy simple things in the race to be sophisticated or cool, or if you just things “Mere Chahne Se Kya Hota Hai”, I suggest please take a deep breadth and be yourself for atleast a day in truest sense. This happiness and freedom is incomparable. Shine with your true colors as a unique creation in global population of billions.

Most of the barriers are self perceived and self made, overcome them today!

I love the positive quotes in this video. Believe in yourself and be yourself. Simple recipe to have a awesome life! :)

It happens with most of us that some incidents are so harse that they stick to us all through our life. It also leads us to behave negatively with other people as if we are trying to take a revenge for our past injuries. We try to heal ourself by taking a revenge. Unknowingly, we punish ourself again for others' faults by loosing the love of someone who truely cares. How far is it justified to seek revenge from ownself? The heart needs some sort of healing and it should not be again at a cost of my happiness. I have discovered forgiving people is the best way to self heal. When I was able to forgive someone who has hurted me, I got inner peace. Revenge may give us temporary relief but the cost is too high to pay for. I understand and agree with the idea that forgiving others is more about your peace of mind then it is about their feelings. You don't have to make it known to those who have hurt you that you have forgiven them. The issue is learning how to transcend the hurt, how to get to a place in your heart and mind where the hurt is no longer holding you back from fully caring for others and allowing yourself to be cared for by others.